Where did this kid come from?
I wrote this last blog April 12... we were in the thick of it, I'm talking flailing, kicking, screaming, pulling hair, throwing shoes, breaking ear drums thick of it...
I had mentioned the separation anxiety at church and my friend giving me the reminder of grace to go solo for a bit so I got my time with God back in my routine while she was having her big feelings. I did that, for two weeks I left her home while I was able to go worship and genuinely listen to the services on Sunday. Today I prepped her... you're going to have so much fun with your friends at church today! This girl... picked out her own outfit, had me paint her nails, do her hair, and walked with an extra pep (and shoulder shrug excitement) in her step on the way in. She got her tag and went right in, saying "Bye Mama!" with a smile. I picked her and we got our usual donuts with Nana and Papa, and wanted to go to the park. I gave her the 5 mins and 1 mins warning with a final 1 more time down the slide and each time I was met with "ok Mama!" no fighting, no tantrums, like who is this kid? We took the golf cart to lunch and she was so polite the entire time, got back home and said ok let's go have quiet time. "Ok Mama, I'm gonna color this for you!" Zero fight, just right into quiet time and falling asleep for nap!
Last night I found myself getting frustrated, little patience, and exhausted... so I stepped away, lifted my eyes up along with my hand and asked God to guide me, to give me the patience, to give me the grace, to show me the path and wisdom... thanked Him for a beautiful, strong, and independent daughter...
Now don't get me wrong, we still had a few melt downs... but they were short lived, met with hugs, and right back at it... the shift is real and I know if I continue to let go, to listen and to pray, to lead her with faith... that maybe we can get through these Tantrum Three's. It was a great reminder that when we're in the thick of it it feels like we'll never get out, but He's always working everything for our good.
Pic below of her reading, she could't believe I'd be taking a picture lol oh the sass!
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